Not Sure How I Feel About This Yet

I've not written in my blog for some time because so much has gone on that, quite frankly, I didn't want to re-live. But I couldn't get on here and write as if those things never happened because:

A) I should address them even though they were terrible
B) I owe it to Curt to get back to the things I used to enjoy
C) It would be a dishonest way to go about things and I don't care for dishonesty

SO I've decided to copy/paste a letter I wrote to my cousin to bring this blog up to date on the days since Curt has died until now. That way I can write one neatly compiled post about the ups and downs of the last few months instead of writing a novel worth of sadness!

The Letter:

HI!

I hope you guys got our Christmas card this year? I loved your picture – especially the fact that it was shaped like a tree. Very inventive!

This year we did Christmas at Eric’s condo again. Instead of going out and cutting down our own Christmas tree we went with a fake one. I’m just not good at taking care of real trees and Eric gets frustrated having to do all the work himself. The real tree turned out to be such a treat though because we had NO needles, minimal fire hazard concern, and maximum lights!

It took a few weeks to get in to the swing of the holidays after my best friend Holly’s husband Curt died. (Pancreatic Cancer – he was diagnosed in January of 07 and passed away on Thanksgiving 07) In the end it turned out to be a good, yet busy, Christmas. Holly and her 2 year old son Brodie went down to TN to be with her parents and Eric and I spent the holidays with our families here in the DC area.

I decided to take this semester off of school. I wasn’t comfortable taking classes at night not knowing how Holly & Brodie were going to cope on their own. I am her only family in the area so it would have been too distracting for me to take classes and worry about them at the same time. She’s been leaning on my parents a lot – which has been nice for all involved. I think my parents like having a mock-grandchild. Brodie likes being around a Dad figure and Holly likes having local parents to be with. Eric has been super understanding and patient through all of this. He has been very giving in the sense that he has let me be there for Holly, Curt & Brodie even when I know sometimes he wished I was at home with him.

Eric and I just took a trip to Atlantic City together last weekend to see Don Rickles. I had never been to AC before so it was a real treat! Eric is going to Vegas at the end of the month with his work/friends and I know he’s really looking forward to getting away.

My best friend Elizabeth is coming from Texas to visit Eric and I in Late March - which I’m really looking forward to. She and I have been able to visit about once a year which has been so nice. When she gets here I am planning to take her to tea at the Mayflower, go to a few local museums, and to a nice brunch in DC.

In April Holly and I are taking a long weekend vacation to Mexico. (I am trying to get all these vacations under my belt before Eric and I start having kids!) I’m really looking forward to this trip! She deserves the vacation after taking care of Curt for so long by herself. She hasn’t had a real vacation since they were engaged! I deserve a vacation for having taken care of her while she was taking care of Curt! I just want to read my book on the beach for the entire time!

My condo is on the market. We put it on the market in the middle of December and we are actually signing on an offer tonight. The market totally blows, so we’re not exactly going to be millionaires after it’s sold, but we’ll make some money at least! Keep your fingers crossed for us! Eric’s condo is up for sale next and we hope to have a single family home in the late spring early summer. =)

Hope all is going well for you guys!

Love you 5 million!!

XOXOXOX,
Jess